Oh Mrs. C! What a gorgeous woman - inside & out! I felt such a connection with her. We both have had great losses. I lost my son five years ago and she lost her son's father and her husband within a year of one another. Grief is a terrible thing, but it builds connections with those of us who know its severe pain.
I can't tell you how thankful I am that Mrs. C chose me to be her boudoir photographer especially since she came all the way from Tennessee just to have her boudoir session with me. Her email she sent me afterwards made me cry. Her story is a roller coaster of big defeats and big wins. From her grief to her weightloss, her journey has been a struggle, but I believe she is now rising from the ashes.
"I just have to say the photo shoot itself is absolutely amazing & such a confidence and self esteem booster. But I honestly believe the viewing is even MORE for that! I cannot even describe them feelings I have right now. I’ve not seen myself physically in true form in the last 13 months since I had surgery. I knew I was losing weight, new I needed smaller clothes, could see a difference in side by side pics and know I’m tiny BUT today for the first time I saw the real true reality and what others see. I also saw a smile on those pics that I haven’t seen in over 2 years, it wasn’t forced, it wasn’t fake...it was genuine and real, even in my eyes. And I've so missed that smile. I’ve missed that feeling of being beautiful, sexy, attractive, loved and wanted by ME! My husband reminded me of all of that & made me feel that daily. I’ve always said no one could or ever will love me like he did but I was proved wrong today because I LOVE ME like he did. I’ve done so much healing & finding me since he died and doing the photo shoot on his death anniversary was something I was not sure about being able to do. But there is a reason you picked that date, there’s a reason I peeled myself off the couch that morning & came. It was my final piece of the broken glass I’ve been trying to glue back together these last 25.5 months.....to love & accept ME no matter what. I know I’ll never get over or completely heal from losing him but I always hoped to find me again and today you helped complete that for me. So for the thousands of emails you get as hate mail (and I think I know you well enough to know you don’t let it get it to you because you’ve been through & heard way worse in life) please know that I am truly thankful for the service you provide to woman, especially broken women like me who just need that little push to fit that broken piece back in so it can be glued. I’ve always been very self conscious but I was not uncomfortable once (after the first 5 mins) walking around with no clothes on, barely any clothes on, doing some poses I never dreamed I could do in front of anyone & baring it all to be photographed. Maybe now when I find Mr Right I can actually get undressed & be comfortable with the lights on because I wasn’t even comfortable taking my clothes off in front of my husband with the lights on & I knew he thought I was sexy and loved me no matter what. So again thank you for all that you do and truly thank you for helping me find ME again. And I will forever be grateful for this whole experience."
Make sure to leave Mrs. C a sweet comment below! She totally deserves it!
Mrs. C's images have been cropped to conceal her identity and protect her privacy.